Mess

Nicki Pov

The sunlight peeked in through the curtains, shining right onto my face. In attempt to fall back asleep I grabbed a pillow to shield my face, but to no avail, since I was already awake. I threw the blankets off myself and headed to the restroom to brush my teeth and wash my face. Afterwards, I stepped into a very cold shower to further wake myself. 

Stepping out the shower, I walked up to the cloudy mirror to grab my towel when something caught my eye. I cleared the glass with my hand to get a better look at my reflection.

"Shit! Shit shit shit shit shit," I cursed myself and leaned in to get a better view of the purple marks on my skin. "Aubrey," I whispered to myself and hurried to my room to search for my phone.

Drake: Nic, u fell asleep in my arms last night & I layed u down in bed & tucked u in. I left after making sure u were ok but I'll be back soon. Just know I meant everything I said last night. 

Before I could get the chance to respond I heard a loud noise come from downstairs.

"Shit shit shit," I panicked and began to pace the floor, assuming Safaree was home. I frantically searched the room for my makeup bag and rushed to the bathroom. I dabbed foundation and pressed powder as best as I could over the purple marks on my neck and chest. Then I went into the closet to change into a long sleeve plaid pajama top & some pajama shorts. I held my breath as I slowly tip-toed down the stairs.

Empty. 

What? 

Where'd the noise come from?

I looked around and heard loud laughter and let out a calm breath. I walked over to the kitchen to find Candi and Lauren.

"I'm telling you her ass could sleep all day if we let her," Candi protested.

"What're y'all loud asses doing in my kitchen so damn early?" I asked, startling them and looking over to the clock which read 12:07pm.

"Well goodmorning to you too Nika!" Candi laughed.

"And it's noon, ma'am," Lauren corrected.

I walked closer to them to give them hugs and then headed to the fridge to grab some orange juice.

"Ooop, look who missed a spot," Candi said pointing at me & Lauren's eyes widened.

"So I'm assuming Safaree'll be down in a minute and that you two are all better?" Candi asked, while Lauren stayed quiet.

I poured my glass of juice and leaned against the fridge, taking a drink and avoiding eye contact.

"Actually no," I started hesitantly. "Aubrey was here last night," I blurted out and hurried away into the living room to turn on the TV.

"What?! I would ask what he was doing but by the looks of your poorly covered up neck, I'd guess you," Candi said with a smirk.

I rolled my eyes at her.

"No, Candice. There was talking and kissing involved, that's all," I stated.

"You sure SB's gonna be so understanding when you tell him that?" Lauren asked with a hint of attitude.

"If he even cares! Everything's an argument lately & all he does is throw himself into other things. He doesn't even pay attention to me anymore. Oh, and let's not forget that he just walks out during our arguments. Hence him not being here now, he hasn't even came home. How do I know he wasn't with some whore last night? Or one of the many nights he walked out in the middle of our fights?!" I snapped. 

"Girl, you know that man loves you way too much to do something like that. Y'all have been together for how long? You've known each other for how long? Maybe you two should sit down & talk about things. Drake tryn'a swoop in and come to your rescue while Safaree's away ain't fair and you know it," Lauren said sitting on the opposite couch with Candi.

I sighed. I knew Lauren was right & I knew she wanted what was best for me, but I was just so angry at Safaree. Everything happened so fast last night with Drake.

"Talk to him, Onika," Candi said plainly.

"Talk to who?" A voice came out of no where just as the door closed.

My heart stopped and I looked up, meeting Safaree's gaze.

"We'd better go, call us or something bitch," Candi said as her and Lauren got up and headed for the door.

"Love you two," I called to them & heard 'Love you too's before the door was closed.

Safaree stood in front of me.

He ran a hand over his face.

"Nic, I'm tired of this fighting. I'm tired of us being like this," Safaree said, catching me off guard, and sounding completely defeated.

I looked in his eyes and a wave of guilt hit my body with force. I felt tears begin to gather in my eyes. He sat next to me and I placed a hand on his face, trying to read him further. A tear threatened to escape but I looked away.

"Nic, please, I don't even care what the argument was about this time. I just, I'll do whatever it takes for us to be back to normal," he said pulling me into him. His arms wrapped around my body and his head fell to my chest.

The guilt sunk further into me and I let out a sigh.

"Safaree, I love you." He looked up at me & placed a hand on my face.

"But I think we need a break," I barely let out. 

"What?" He said, his body tensing & him moving away from me while he sat up.

"We're ruining each other, & everything we have right now, I just, I don't know, we need time. Time apart, to fix it," I said looking away & holding back tears.

"Nicki, that's bullshit and you know it. You know I love you more than anything in this world. I don't need time, I need you. Tell me what I need to fix & I'll do it," Safaree retorted.

"It's not you that need's fixing, it's me," I said, my voice cracking.

"Nicki, what're you talking about?" he pulled me towards him again. "You don't-" his eyes traveled to my neck & I just stared at him. Internally smacking myself and my stupidity. He let go of me & stood.

"Safaree-" I stood up and reached for him. My tears had finally fallen. 

"Tell me, those aren't what I think they are on your neck," he said, his tone serious.

I stayed silent & my cheeks continued to be stained with tears.

"Tell me, you were alone here last night, & that I'm seeing shit 'cuz I know damn well I wasn't kissing on you last night so who the fuck was?" He snapped and looked me right in the eyes.

"Safaree," I reached for his arm but he pulled away. "Safaree, I, I don't know. I was stupid. I was drinking. Drake came over, we kissed. I-I-.. We had been fighting & I don't know, I was so mad at you & everything happened so quickly. But nothing more than kissing, I swear to you. I just- That's- that's why I said we needed fixing. Me, not you. I'm the one ruining us," I rambled, now crying uncontrollably.

"Wow," Safaree said, his voice lifeless, but his body tense. The vain on his forehead poked out so I could tell how angry he was.

"Safaree, please. Please. Don't hate me, okay. I know I fucked up. I know how mad you are, but please," I sat down on the couch and hid my face in my hands.

Silence. 

I expected to hear the slamming of the door and him driving off. Just as I looked up he was standing right in front of me.

"Faree, please say something," I pleaded.

He pulled me to him, instantly picking me up into his arms as my legs wrapped around him. His lips crashed onto mine. One of his hands was firmly around my waist while the other was holding my face. His lips attacked mine, he sucked along my bottom lip, biting on it, before his lips were against mine again & his tongue snuck it's way into my mouth. Our tongue's wresteld for dominance and he had so much force, so much anger, so much passion that I felt throughout the kiss. His hands traveled up my body as I felt him sit on the couch & I stayed sitting atop him, still in his hold. He pulled away for a second to rip the top open and his mouth darted for my chest. He sucked between my breast, nipping at the skin. Then he moved along to my right breast sucking with everything in him. Kissing here and there before biting on my nipple then sucking on it, repeatively before doing the same to the left. His kisses then traveled up my neck, still wet & passionate, until he met my lips. He crashed into them like they were his only source of energy, of life. He sucked along my bottom lip as I moaned into his mouth and my hands tightened around his neck, trying to pull him in closer. Just then, he pulled away, and moved me off of him as he stood.

"The next time Drake's here, tell me if he kisses you like that," he said as he walked to the door & before I could chase after him it slammed shut. Seconds later I heard his engine start & him drive off. I sat there, in shock. Then when reality set in, I cried. I cried uncontrollably at the damage I'd done, at the mess I'd made.

AN: Okaaaay.. Well I'll just leave with that. Let me just say that this story has only just begun & I have A LOT in mind. Yes yes, I'm plottin.' BUT I really need for whoever may be reading this to COMMENT. It's very important. It'll let me know in which direction you want the story to go, or if you have any ideas I may or may not use. Also, it let's me know if I should even continue writing this. So, get to it. Type somethin' up, ya know ya wanna. :p Thanks for reading, Xoxo